So here it is, following on from the posting earlier today (see below) containing some of the songs I like which bring to mind my own Father, who died almost a year ago on June 25th.
This being the first Fathers Day since he left us, I was extremely moved by the article Dr Jeffrey Lant, CEO Worldprofit, has written today, not just because of the song he has chosen but also because it reminds me of some of the things I should not have taken for granted, some of the things I did without a thought for my Fathers feelings and things I should have said but never did.
As we all do when someone close, is with us constantly, I never realised how much I would miss him now he’s gone, but also how much he thought of me and my lifetime achievements. These are things I only really learnt and understood by talking to my Mother after he had passed away. Things like his fear that I would be lost to him, when I was diagnosed with Leukeamia in May 2009 – He actually did not sleep for days worrying about me whilst I was in hospital. This at a time when he himself was probably more ill than I ever was, but would never show it. We knew he was ill of course but did not fully understand how ill he really was, because he kept those sort of things to himself.
He spent the last few years of his life preparing his affairs, in the background, quietly, secretly, not saying anything to my Mother, for fear she would not be able to accept or cope with it, but none-the-less preparing his affairs ready for her to take over once he had gone, for he knew his time was short. And the end when it did come, came suddenly, far too soon, he was much, much worse than we thought or he had let known.
Had he made the gravity of his illness more known to those around him, his final years would possibly have been just a little easier on him. But that was my Father, always putting on the brave face, always thinking of other people, even during the hardest part of his own life.
Happy Fathers Day Dad, I Love You and Miss You So Much.
Thank you Dr Lant for reminding me and having me in tears whilst reading and publishing it.
To read Dr Lant’s article in full go to this page: Articles / Family / ‘I’m gonna be like you, Dad.’ Father’s Day, June, 2011
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